Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Dear Pickle

Our sweet little pickle,

I've been wanting to write a letter to you for a while, but couldn't bring myself to do it until now.  I guess part of my was just waiting to get past the 12.5 week mark, which is when we lost your sister last year.  Yesterday was that day (finally!).  

Sometimes I can't even believe that there is a person growing inside of me.  A beautiful, amazing person.  There are so many questions that I can't wait to have answered.  Of course there are the obvious questions: Are you a boy or girl?  What color eyes and hair will you have?  Will you look more like Mommy or Daddy?  Will you have any health problems?

And then the more I think about it, the more questions come up.  What will you want to be when you "grow up?"  Will you be a touchy person or more stand-offish?  Who will be your first love?  Your first real loss?  

There are so many things I want for you, so many things I want to protect you from.  I am already dreading the day when you get your heart-broken, whether it be by someone of the opposite sex or the loss of a loved one or pet.  I don't want you to ever hurt.  Ever.

But I know that it is part of you becoming YOU.

I do pray that through anything you go through, that you always know these two things; First, Mommy and Daddy love you so very much and you can always come to us for anything.  Secondly, as much as Mom and Dad love you, it is NOTHING compared to how very much Jesus loves you.  There is absolutely nothing that you can do that will make Him love you any more, and nothing that you can do to make him love you less.  I hope that you learn this from us, that we are good examples of His unending love.

Alrighty, my love, Mommy has to go to work.  Technically, you have to go with her ;)  So let's go my sweetie!

With so very much love,
Mommy

2 comments:

JKs mullings.... said...

I love you and our pickle. Thank you for being you.

Jimmydan said...

you haven't posted for a while babe?